I'll be back soon, wont I?

15 days to go... I’m already feeling so low... (hey that’s rhyming... :) )

I'll miss my office. I'll miss my outlook. I'll miss my colleagues. I'll miss my sweet home. I'll miss my Bangalore. I'll miss Bangaloreans. I'll miss everybody. I'll miss you (yes reader u).

Boy! People ask me whenz my last day and I say 15th July 2005 trying to sound normal. But deep inside I hope 15th takes a long time to come. I’ve been in Bangalore ever since I’ve seen this world. Bangalore and Bangaloreans are my world. Now I ‘am going to be away for 2 years!!! Away from all those who were mine, my home, my friends. Jesus!! I can’t take this!!! How can I be away for 2 years?? I cannot. I cannot. It seems like a point of no return. Man 2 years is long time

But time will go on I know and in just 1296000 seconds I have to depart. Huh!!! just 1296000 seconds. Mummy!!! I have to leave Blore. Be all on myself. Slog in the world where you have to prove every moment to live the next. Prove your worth. And that too with no shoulders to fall back and cry on when I want to. I’ve never experienced anything this hard to digest. Man life is hard.

It’s a mixed feeling. I know I’m going with purpose and it’s unavoidable. I know it’s not the end of the world and it’s probably a new beginning. But to leave all, all that was yours from day 1 and be relocated to a place surrounded by strangers is definitely not easy. I never knew I was so attached to all of you. I never thought it will ever be painful for me to leave. Its only when you are going to miss something that you realize how much you needed it.

Hey what's going on? I’m not this senti guy who takes life too seriously. Relax... Easy Anoop easy... Come on. Be a Man.

I’m actually trying nowadays to cling on to everything possible. I stay late at office. I play with my dog. I chat a lot with my parents. I’m desperately trying to meet up with friends. I’m still a kid... a kid.. (as one of my friend rightly calls me). I need u guys. I cannot leave.

My only ray of hope is to come back after 2 years. Right back to my sweet home. As one of my friend said "Nothing is going to stop you from coming back." Yes! I will be back into each one of your lives and bump into to you and say "Hi. I’m back." But for now I can only hope to be back.

What say guys " I'll be back soon, wont I?"

PS: I can’t believe I’m blogging such senti stuff. But that’s all that I can think now. May be I should grow up.